Cycle.

It's a cycle.
And the cycle will always repeat itself.
Until one day, it'll eventually end.
Either good or bad, no one knows.

Random thoughts.

Have you ever feel like you are stuck halfway, neither here nor there?

Well, maybe it's one fifth life crisis. You hit twenty, and you feel old. When I look at kids, they really make me jealous, and think back of what I was then. When I was twelve, I thought twenty was a long way down my life.
In life, there are too many things to learn. I guess that involves, giving and taking, and sometimes ignorance is bliss, and many of times, letting go may not means giving up, it may means getting more.

I wonder how worthless I am.
I have a long day ahead tmr. I need to get to sleep.

我想我真的做人做的很失败吧。

Another chapter.

Finally some time for me to blog ever since the release of results.
It was because I got my tuition timing all screwed up, and I've got some time after my dinner before the next tut!): what a waste of my time and energy!
Well, I didn't do well for my alevels. Didn't because I'm an u-turner, someone who take 3 years to do it, should have done better than this. But just cross fingers that I'll get into one of the local uni! Choices are quite limited. But shall just apply!
And all the upsets and all are actually quite fast forgotten. The alvl is actually a phrase of life. It doesn't really mean anything right?(: I read a really meaningful post on fb a day before the release of results!
Everything must have happened for a reason yeah?(:
Now it has really marked the end of jc life, finally after three years, and I definitely need to think more about my future!(:
Shall blog about my Thailand trip soon!(:
And project about revamping my room should also start soon!(; I've bought decor stickers from Thailand to be part of the decors!(:

2.38am

The heart is pumping so loudly that I just cannot sleep. So loudly that I feel that it's too fast. I dunno how much faster will it go tmr. I finally feel it, too scary seriously. I keep visualizing how tmr will be like. Maybe because I saw how my friends took their results last year. Last year I'm kinda thankful that im not the one taking results, cause I have another year. But now even taking the extra year, still so worried about tmr's result. I should be confident but I'm totally not.
Seriously, I'm really afraid of disappointing people around me. I know my parents will still be there with me no matter what. But I really won't know how to break the news to them telling them how bad it will be. I still remember how hard I cried when I told my mum that I wanted to u-turn.
Sometimes I really hate myself, for always screwing things up. Always.

Sometimes I hate it that I feel that we are so far apart.

Bkk day one!

Whoohoo! I'm in bkk now, at chompu place!(: looking forward for more! And I finally took the plane after so long! <:

Happy vday!<3

Before I go to bed, I feel that I should delicate a post to the boy!
I know I always take things for granted. I should really appreciate people and things around me, but times and again I failed. But no matter what nonsense I am, he never fails to love me still.
Today, when you took out the flowers, I cried non-stop. And I know how ugly I look. But I just couldn't control. I cannot describe how touch I am, how surprised and all I'm. Thanks for the effort and I really appreciate it!
Hope you like what I've baked for you, and what ive given you.love you baby!<3
Once again, happy vday!
I'm feeling really blessed to have you with me.

Taking lesser and lesser photos these days. Feel that my life is just way too boring!
Definitely need more colors other than just work!

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我知道有时候也需要吵吵闹闹
但始终也知道只有你对我最好
豆浆离不开油条 让我爱你爱到老!(:
Love you you~

Cny is round the corner!~

I kinda self declared to 收工 myself! It's Chinese new year, so I need to prepare and get my room packed today yeah? ESP when Cny is just two days later! Everyone has had their hair cut, but I haven't even done so. Well, I guess I'll just snip my own fringe can?~ haha!
Let's hope Chinese new year isn't too borning!(: and after Chinese new year, I'm having a 7 days work week till my Thailand trip which is actually not long later! *beams*

And I attended we are not naughty movie premier!

Holiday plans

Whoohoo! Thailand holiday plan is finally coming true! Plus I'm going there for 10 days! (:
And I've found a job that needs me to work on Tuesday Friday Saturday and Sunday! But well really need the job cause I wanna save up!!(:
Need to stop spending money too!!

Work

First job ever since my alevel ends. A really short one though! Only got the weekends, and it will only last for 3 weeks!(:
Now, my eyes are closing and my legs are breaking! I'm currently having my break now!(: 3 more hours to go after this!~

Few days back I brought my ah ma to chinatown and we had yum cha for brunch!~ quality time spent!(:

Batam trip!

Photos overload!~ there are so many photos that are so pretty! I've already tried my best to pick out the best!~ but there are still so many(: just can't resist!

真的真的好喜欢出海的感觉(:
Must really go learn diving!~